I went in for a second blood test today and it came back completely negative. I figured as much would happen. It seems my body has absolutely no interest in being pregnant. Lucky me.

Once I start a new cycle I’ll call the clinic and find out what the next step is. We very fortunately still have 5 frozen embryos to try and get a baby or two from. Hopefully one of them will work!

We’ve already decided that once those 5 embryos are gone, that’s it. We’re not going through this whole process again. It is an incredibly painful journey that sometimes just doesn’t have a happy ending, even for someone who walked into a fertility clinic at 24 years old and was told they would not walk out without a baby.

Now you may be asking yourself “what is slightly pregnant?” or “how can someone be slightly pregnant?”.

Modern medicine is a fascinating thing. In olden times (the early 1930’s) they used to inject a rabbit with a womans blood to see if she was pregnant. Nowadays they do some magical test with blood to see how much HCG shows up in it. Technically speaking, anything above 5 is considered pregnant, though within the first 12 weeks it should get to over 200,000. So if your HCG level was, say, at 6, yes, you would technically be pregnant, but not necessarily for long. It would most likely end in an early miscarriage.

I caved yesterday and took a home pregnancy test. It flashed its little hourglass symbol at me for a few minutes then informed me “not pregnant”. I was slightly surprised, but not completely. Why would my body all of a sudden decide to cooperate and get pregnant? Yeah, it wouldn’t.

I went in this morning for a blood test to confirm the results. I was expecting either a complete negative or a very very low positive. My doctor called and informed me it was the later. My HCG level this morning was 9. So, slightly pregnant. Not necessarily going to stay that way. Probably not going to stay that way. That means I get to go back in on Monday morning for another test. If it’s 18 or higher we could be moving in the direction of a pregnancy. If it isn’t, then definitely not a viable pregnancy.

We shall see.